20th December 2012.. Day before the last day

Since today is the last day of the world, according to the Maya calendar, I would think this might be a better opportunity to review the past year than new year’s eve. For the dummies amongst us, the world is not really going to end tomorrow, and if it would still be so, then probably for me even the day after tomorrow because I am currently in India and we have a very different time zone than the Mayas. To just set the scene of here; I’m at this time sitting in our room in the guesthouse, vamsi building, my bed is a complete mess, the sheets are peeling off the mattress and I have no clue what the front or back of my blanket is. Maybe I also should ask my neighbours if they have seen my pillow. Furthermore, in the weird case you still are interested in the chaos of my bed, there is a wallet, a notebook, 3 pens in the colours yellow, red and green, and my bead bag and Krsnabook are also present at the party. Today was my.. 5^th day of holiday. Although, holiday.. I spent the major part of the day trying to write my essay, but somehow as soon as I’m online and Skyping my boyfriend who sadly is still back at home nothing gets done. This is not only the case when we Skype btw, but also if we just hang around at home. Not even eating is imaginable with that gay around. Ooooops did I say gay? I meant guy of course.. although if one has seen his blog one can very easily forgive me my little mistake.(www.thatbengaliguy.wordpress.com) So well, today I tried to work on my essay, western philosophy, free will/determinism. Yesterday I wrote the introduction in let’s say 10 minutes and today I spent the whole day Skyping and Facebooking in the hallway of the Longbuilding (used to be the longest building in West Bengal. Sick no?) and I can imagine that all the devotees who passed by more than once were kind of confused by me so attentively watching my screen, for hours and hours. To do something with a bad start is always a very bad idea. I slept in till like 11. Stupid jetlag, although I don’t really feel it and nobody says it’s a jetlag I still do not feel tired around 9 and then just stay awake for hours and hours, and wake up around 11.. which is exactly 5 hours later than I normally woke up so yeah. JETLAG FOR LIFE. Hopefully I won’t jetlag through the end of times tomorrow, that would be so sad. Did you know that ekadasi falls exactly tomorrow? So for all the vaisnavas amongst us who strangely also believe in the Maya calendar (which is technically not possible but hey, let’s just assume this for the hell of it), we are going to die and we can’t eat anything as a nice last supper for the whole day! ARGH, life is unfair. Okay back to reality, life is not going to end, sadly enough we still have 148.000 years of Kali Yuga ahead of us. And, to make matters even worse, I’m supposed to get sick tomorrow! Hallelujah this is all Krishna’s mercy. Thank you lord. But hey, I’m in the holy Dham, I’m in my birthplace, I’m very near to Sri Sri Radha-Madhava and Panca Tattva and to make things even better, Nrsimhadeva is also very close to me. And they are so beautiful! It’s just truly amazing to see something so touch-able being so gorgeous. I feel kind of sad for all those in the world who do not believe that God is a person and has the ability to manifest himself in certain forms. To not be able to worship a deity.. sucks pretty bad according to me. Hmm poor poor Muslims and Jews.. I feel for you guys! I hope you once just randomly stop here in Sri Mayapur Dham and get astonished, flabbergasted by the beauty manifested here in these deities. Hmm I think I’m getting of track, what was I talking about again? Oh yeah, we’re all going to die tomorrow, please say your prayers and go to bed, have some nice loving, pray all night, hope for nothing, think of Krishna, drink all you can, get overdosed, commit suicide, go to church, study in the library for your test next week, make wedding arrangements, book a flight, spend all your money, chant some extra rounds, take a shower (we die clean), make a smoothie, buy a car, write a blog, catch a rainbow, find a pot with gold, take a picture of your grandma, charge your phone and laptop and do all this for the day we’re going to heaven. (You can cross out anything you don’t want to do or add stuff you really want to get accomplished before the end of the world.)

My Personal accomplishment list is (in random order):

ü  Finished highschool

ü  Learnt how to walk, talk, go to the bathroom in time and got my typing diploma.

ü  Experienced love and distress

ü  Had real friends

ü  I took birth in a very loving family

ü  Fixed a lamp and learnt how to fix bicycle tires

ü  Got my driver’s licence

ü  Knew what true grief was

ü  Found out that the best way to find something out is to just ask the person, or Google.

ü  Popularity doesn’t matter, it’s the way you feel about yourself. I like myself. I am cool. Even though I look like a hobo and act like a weirdo most of the time, and you don’t want to see my hairdo.